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The most honest post that you will ever read!
Boy, I don't even know where to begin. I guess that I'll start by saying that I'm a 50 year old single man. I am , in great shape, attractive, and a great guy. I'm at a point in my life where I know who I am, and I like who I am. I have done a lot of work on myself and am always evolving. Okay, now to the baggage. We all have baggage of some sort, even though most say that they don't - they do! I feel it's in my best interest, as well as any prospective partner's best interest, to lay it all out here. While I love who I am, I didn't always love who I was. I was in a relationship that I didn't want to be in, but stayed for the most obvious of reasons - the . I should have got out, but I chose more unconventional ways of dealing with my relationship. I did not deal with the emotional pain in a normal way. Instead, I drank. I didn't drink excessively, but it was enough to consider myself an . I was not the fall down, passed out drunk that most think of when they think of . Instead, I took the edge off, yet I did it in a way that wasn't right. I didn't know it then, but I do know it now. I am a very active participant in . That program has taught me how to live a better life, all while finding out how to be a better human being. I am beyond excited with how I am as a person and a father to my . I have always been there for my , but now it has so much more meaning. I savor every day and seize every opportunity to be a better person. Then there was the womanizing. I hate to mention this, but it was who I was. Notice that I said "was". I'm out of my relationship and no longer need to find the emotional support that your spouse should somewhat provide. So in short, I had affairs as a way of dealing with the emotional and parts of my life that were missing. I am not proud of it, but it was all that I knew at that time. I'm sure most of you are reading this and thinking WTF? Can't say that I blame you because I would think the same if I was on the outside looking in. But you weren't inside, so you don't have all of the circumstances as to why I didn't get out. If you've been in a relationship that isn't working on many levels, but you have too much "life" going on within the relationship, then you get it. I am by no means proud of any of my behaviors. But, I can't take them back and I feel that I need to be honest about who I was. If I've learned anything through my journey, it's this: if I'm honest with any prospective partner, then there's nothing to hide or hide from. And that's as honest as it gets. There are so many men on this and dating sites who hide from their past and hope it never crops up. Why deceive anyone? I'm not. You may think that I'm an evil man and the ' "once a cheater, always a cheater" or "once an , always an ". But that's not always true, and definitely not here. I learned lessons the hard way. I never want to go back to the person that I was, and I never will. My life is so much better when I'm up front, sincere, and honest. You may disagree or hate me, and that's your right. But I'm sure there's a woman out there who gets it and gets the bigger . I don't live in my past, but I haven't shut the door on it either. It's a great reminder of where I never want to go again. And as a result, I'm an excellent communicator who understands how to express feelings and emotions, openly and honestly. Believe it or not, I feel better letting that energy out into the universe. As you can see, I'm honest. I'm open, and I'm not afraid to share my past, no matter how ugly it is. It made me a better and stronger man. If you're still here, I'm into anything outdoors. I have a passion for working out and stay quite fit. I take excellent care of myself, both mentally and physiy. I love doing anything with the right person. So who is that person? It's someone who understands that people change. It's someone who appreciates honesty and integrity in her man. It's someone who is in great shape because she understands that there is no better gift to yourself than keeping your mind and body in tip top shape. It's someone who has love to give and also wants to receive. It's someone who isn't angry at the world or her ex. It's someone who sees in shades of grey. It's someone who wants someone in her life that she can trust and count on. It's someone who wants a great guy with an excellent on life. It's someone who wants me, flaws and all. It's someone who wants her man to see only her every time and every place. I'm sure that this post will evoke a lot of negative emotion from women who have experienced this from the other side. I'm sorry if you did, but it wasn't me who did it. Please don't respond if you want to remind me of how rotten you think I am or how much of this or that you think I am. I've already experienced that, and in spades. Someone will get this and understand. That's the partner for me. How's that for open and honest?
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